I'm pretty sure I have a mental breakdown and write a post like this every semester, so I apologize if everyone is extremely bored with my posts about school by now.
So, as if rejoining the workforce after a beautiful wedding and absolutely amazing honeymoon wasn't hard enough, summer school has started. I am struggling. I haven't take a class in summer since I was in undergrad-in 2004. Yes, ten long years ago! And I didn't work full time then. That summer I lived at home and waited tables at what used to be Pitchers on Lake Hartwell. Yes, I am from the upstate, but went to Carolina, so 99% of the people I worked with at Pitchers were Clemson students. That summer I took Microbiology at Tri County Tech, and it wasn't too bad.
I know that I am lucky I even got into a competitive graduate program, and very blessed to have the opportunity to go to school at age 29. I have NO reason to complain. None at all. I am just being honest here - sometimes it is really hard. I get off work and I am mentally drained and just want to
watch Real Housewives relax, not get started on studying for the day. South Carolina summers are beautiful, and I want to be outside. I will be the first to tell you that being an adult student requires a lot of sacrifices.
I know I will pull myself together and do it. I have to, and I always do. "Nothing to it but to do it" is what I tell myself. Last semester was my best semester of grad school thus far, I ended up with two As and a B+.
This summer I am taking Research Methods (so far not that hard, just very dull), and Neuro. Neuro is awful. Yes, sounds interesting, and it is, but very very hard. Last night I was trying to study, and I say try because I really wasn't doing much of anything. I had a headache all.day.long. yesterday, so basically all I was doing was moving my eyes across the page and not actually understanding anything.
So, dear readers, please excuse my breakdown. I have my first test in Neuro Friday, so hopefully I can get myself together to study for it between now and then, and I will be feeling better. I know I want to finish this program, and I know I will absolutely love having a new (better paying) career when it is over. I just have to remind myself sometimes.
I will be back with better posts soon! Thank you if you made it through reading this.